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| > I treat them in our hospitals five
> days a week. I knew that I will not survive if I went after it alone. My plan
> is to make a pact: team of six medical doctors that will change this world
> together. We help one another through no matter what. In college, I tend to
> stick with friends to survive and thrive the world that was different from
> anything we had ever known. I provided a kind of positive peer pressure. I knew
> my friends would excel and I didn’t want to embarrass myself or lag being. We
> studied together, worked together, and learned to solve our problems with one
> another. We are medical students today because of this positive influence that
> we had on one another. Lives are most impressionable as young people are
> defined by their friends, whether they are Black, Caucasian, Hispanic, or
> Asian; whether they are rich, poor, or middle class. The six of us were
> blessed. We found in one another a friendship that works in a powerful way;
> helped six vulnerable people grow into successful and a friendship that
> ultimately helped save our lives. But it wasn’t always easy. If I succeeded at
> all in helping to turn even a single life around or an opening window of faith
> and hope, then this book was well worth my efforts.
> I spent the first four years of my life at Alum Rock Apartment with my mother,
> father, and sister. At age 4 and a half, we moved to Lion Plaza just 15 minutes
> away from our old apartment. My favorite place was the playground. One day my
> sister and I constantly playing lava monsters and climbing up fences. Climbing
> down from the fence, I slipped upside down, and hit my head on the ground. My
> sister was four, rushed over, and cried. I notice that on the right side near
> my eye started to sting a lot, I touched it and saw blood on my fingers. I
> immediately started crying and ran home. I thought I was going to be blind.
> Rush to the hospitals and a pediatric doctor suture me up. My curiosity of life
> began. This would be my first scar in my life. My mother, Linda Kim Pham, has
> always been the dominant figure in my life. My mother married my dad Sen Kim
> Quach in 1986. I was born on December 14th, 1988 in San Jose
> California at O’Connor Hospital. My dad was happy because he wanted a boy
> first. My dad always works hard to keep the family alive. But we never spent
> the kind of time together that builds a relationship. My mom is a nice woman.
> She lost everything back in Vietnam, coming to America with nothing; she
> stopped school at twelve grades. She always had been nurturer. When my mom
> fights with my dad, she sometimes hit him, and throws things at him. They
> fought in front of us, until one of our parents walked away. It never occurred
> to me that one of them would actually leave us. One day pop left without saying
> a word. I was ten when he moved out. But he never forgets us; he would
> sometimes come over, bring food, and give us five or ten dollars. I love my
> father. Mom had never worked and with a little education of marketable skills.
> We had to go on welfare. My mom had one generation, the family was small, and I
> never get to know my dad family side. I took kung fu lessons for a few years;
> stop at red belt one stripe, and went straight to skate boarding. The martial
> art lessons taught me to remove myself from environment with deep
> concentration. Life is funny thou, I skipped preschool because my mom wanted me
> to be the same year with my sister. I wanted my family to be rich. My mom
> relied on power greater than herself. She always brags about how smart and productive
> Han is. As difficult as our relationship eventually became, I always knew Han
> wanted me to have the best. Incomplete
> By age 15, I started to slip; I
> stopped skating and began speeding toward trouble. It would take years for me
> to learn that friendship lift you up, strengthens you, empower you, breaks you
> down, weaken you, and defeat you. I kept getting mixed up with guys who had
> lost all hope. I was hanging out with guys who were four to seven years old
> average. We sat around drinking, smoking cigarettes, and talking trash.
> At first, I just listened as they shared war stories about dealing around the
> East Side San Jose. In time, though, I would have stories of my own. No matter
> how much I hung out with my friends and pretended now to care about school, I
> always managed to excel. Mom couldn’t help me with homework, but she stayed on
> me to do well “Go to school, Tony,” she said so seriously, as if my life
> depended on it. I saw close up how she suffered without education, and I didn’t
> want the same thing to happen to me. I aimed as far I could see: finishing high
> school. Beyond that, I had no ambition. College was far from my mind.
> My aunt Monica Loriega took full advantage of
> the leniency. She chose to tolerate the verbal punishment at report-card. My
> teachers seemed to like me. As tough as I acted outside school, I paid
> attention to them in class, and usually did what they asked. Sometimes though,
> I had to be creative in explaining good grades to my friends. I lied to them
> frequently “I copied”. I try to minimize any accomplishment. Kids who did well
> in school were considered nerds. I wanted to be cool. And more than anything, I
> wanted to fit in. Mom had placed many of her dreams on me. She had sacrificed
> her education for her family, and she pushed me to excel. Mom didn’t care much
> about getting a letter grade C, but I also knew better than not to fail. Many
> of the guys I knew sold drugs because they felt they had no choice. I believe
> that people who grew up in less stable environment were more susceptible to
> pressure from friends to do the negative things that everyone else seemed to be
> doing. I wanted to be a good guy who commanded respect from the streets in a
> way that was different from everything I had seen.
> I was hanging out with guys like me
> were lost and acting like little thugs, trying to define our manhood by wild
> foolish behavior. Among boys, particularly, there seems to be some macho code
> that says to gain respect, you have to prove that you were bad. Through a child
> eyes, I saw my father sacrificing his needs for me. I did my work in school,
> but I was not a nerd. I didn’t allow school to consume me. It seems that most
> students were either so smart that they had little or no social skills, or they
> were so sociable that they goofed off during class and neglected their
> schoolwork. I tended to lean toward people who offered a balance. I was friends
> with a lot of girls, even thou they were hot; they were to mature to have any
> interest in me beyond “little brother”. They often shared their boyfriend,
> family, or personal business with me and sought advice, but given my limited
> experience with girls at the time, I could only offer sympathetic ear. The quad
> where I hang out at school broke into two cliques, with two different groups
> doing things I just wasn’t willing to do: homework, clubs, and school spirit
> kind of stuff. The rest of us hung out and caused all kind of havoc at school.
> I had more difficult time staying away from trouble. My friends tended to be
> older and more influential. With my engaging personality, I always attracted a
> lot of friends. My loyalty was test on regular basis, and had to fight to prove
> that I could walk the streets without being intimidated. Though I was very friendly, you can tell the
> feeling that there was more going on inside my head than I let on. I held it
> all inside. A few dedicated teachers at high school who pushed us to learn and
> forced us to do our work, but too many others just didn’t know how to reach us
> and didn’t seem to care. They expected and accepted mediocrity or less, and
> unfortunately we usually gave no more. “I got mine, now you got to get yours”,
> exasperated teachers often told us. I felt so alone, I no longer felt
> challenged, and my academic performance began to slip. I made average grades,
> but I could have done better if I had worked hard. We began to skip classes. It
> was a common practice among students at our school. We knew we could get away
> with it, and we did. I realized that school administrators would probably be
> watching me closely, and I began to attend classes more regularly.
> Chapter 3 Earth Angel
> Four years ago, I met this girl name
> Mary Kim Nguyen. It was during my junior year of High School. I met her through
> Johnny Pham. While in the car, I was smoking a cigarette and for sure one
> thing, it was a turn off in front of Mary. I started to talk to her more and
> ask for her screen name. We got close together. I would buy her Jamba Juice
> gummy bear and peach pleasures. I would sometimes wait for her during VSU
> (Vietnamese Student Union) practice. I remember I went to her talent show for
> VSU. I got to admit that she was beautiful. Sometimes we would go buy popcorn
> chicken and boboa drinks at Sweet Tea. While driving, she would feed me so I
> would focus on the road. I was happy that I met her but I was still prideful
> with the people I hang out with. During my mid junior year, there was an event
> call Battle of School. Mary promises me that we would hang out afterwards. My friend
> James picked me up and drove to school. I walked in with pajamas. I saw her in
> the battle of school clothes. I yelled at her name and she saw me and smiled.
> Her friend gave her this big poster “Mary Poppin.” She needed to go home and
> change so we drove her home. She came out wearing pajamas just like me. To be
> honest, she was attractive. We arrived at my pad and James said “Good luck man,
> lucky time” and drove off. We were hanging out and talking but she was very
> tired from the battle. When she was about to fall asleep, I leaned over her and
> kissed her. By the look on her face, I know that she was a little bit confused
> and shocked. That night we had some “Intimacy.”
> That morning, I walked her home holding her hand. We were both thinking about
> what happened last night. I walked her half way and we both hugged and kissed
> each other. We both decided it would not happen again and we need to get to
> know each other more. We promise each other that we would wait after marriage.
> I know it was too soon to say that kind of stuff but truly, I did love her. We
> got more intimacy over the months but I was still prideful. We called each
> other hubby and wifey initialing her name MLP. During my senior year, she had
> to move to Austin Texas. That was devastating to me because I didn’t have the
> chance to tell her how I feel. I didn’t
> want to ruin her goodbye moments by letting my emotions out like that. On her
> final day, I didn’t even bother to spend time with her but I knew we were both
> really sad. I told her that I will wait for her till she come back to home
> again. She said the same thing. We both promised each other. On my final days
> of high school, I didn’t do much but went home. Seniors everywhere made
> memories of their last year, prom. Mary had moved away to Texas, I wanted to
> ask her to be my date but there was nothing I could do to bring her back. I
> rejected Yen Pham and Tran Nguyen because I only wanted to go with Mary. Unfortunately,
> I broke that promise. I got with Kim. One day Mary called me and we talked. She
> said “I guess I can’t call you hubby anymore” I said “yea…” but I asked her to
> be my Bestfriend instead and she said “of course.” She usually called me or
> emailed me to keep in touch. That makes me happy because she still remembers
> me. I always asked her when she will be back and what college will she apply
> to. She told me that her parents would let her come back to California whether
> she gets accepted into Stanford or Santa Clara University. I really wanted to
> go college with her and be able to spend time with her. After knowing what
> college she would be applying to, I had to plan everything ahead which leads me
> in a very stressful situation. Both of those schools were so impossible for me
> because it was hard to get into. To be honest, I was about to cry after she
> said Stanford University. My mind was far beyond from Stanford “what if she
> gets into Stanford University?” “How the heck I would be able to get into that
> high rank school?” Santa Clara wasn’t a problem for me because Law school was
> the first thing on my mind but there was a change of plan in everything after
> my dad situation. Everything happens for a reason right? Anyways while she was
> in Texas, I really wanted to keep in touch with her but Kim wouldn’t let me
> which made me angry because she keeps thinking I would cheat on her with Mary.
> After arguing with Kim and getting into stupid fights with her, I got fed up
> and bought Mary a phone. Before buying Mary the phone, I told her that I would surprise
> her. I’m not really good at telling people about surprises because I just had
> to blab it all out. I remember how happy she was when she got her first phone.
> That day made me very happy because my frustration with Kim was out of my mind.
> Kim never knew about this scheme because she also hides a lot things from me
> which I have find out myself eventually. Over the past months, Kim and I were
> going downward because full time school and work was really hard to juggle with.
> I had my depression moments but I didn’t want to tell Mary what I was going
> through. I didn’t want her to worry about my situation and I wanted her to
> focus in school. I held it all inside. I wanted to tell her how mean Kim was,
> what horrible things she said about me and my mom, and caught her cheating on
> me three times. Kim was always talking crap how my family was poor, and my dream
> is a joke. Funny thing was that I never told Kim I got accepted into Stanford
> University because I know my relationship with her won’t work out. People told
> me to break up with her but I couldn’t do it because I’ve promise her not to
> break up with her; therefore I was waiting for her to break up with me instead.
> I kept my word. I never had broken any promise with anybody. I did care about
> Kim but not as much I cared for Mary. Time passed by and I remain humble with
> all the conflict I have. I waited for Mary to come back but by time she came
> back, I was already in Medical school which left me less time to spend or catch
> up with her. I was happy that she was back in California but I was depressed
> because I have to change plans about going to college with her. Even when she
> was back in California, I didn’t get to see her. On November 27th,
> 2009 black Friday, I finally saw her. I picked her up at her uncle house. It
> was funny because I didn’t give her a hug until we were at Great Mall.
To be continue | | |
| Back in April 2009 aim convo.
kimwhoowin: didnt you want me to see a house where its nice
kimwhoowin: doesnt have to big
kimwhoowin: but looks clean and stuff
kimwhoowin: but instead
kimwhoowin: took me two houses where it looked messy
kimwhoowin: i didnt care
kimwhoowin: but still
VI3TN1PMESE: was that important to you?
kimwhoowin: i didnt care, but at least try to make it clean
kimwhoowin: i'm a clean person
VI3TN1PMESE: because to me it was not important, its not a permanent home
VI3TN1PMESE: well i am more cleaner than you
kimwhoowin: you would take my parents to your hoouse
kimwhoowin: oh really bacteria wise
VI3TN1PMESE: that is what you called clean
kimwhoowin: they wouldnt come
kimwhoowin: i would not take them there
kimwhoowin: i do not like where you live
kimwhoowin: i rather take them to a house
kimwhoowin: i wonder why
kimwhoowin: then why are you still with me?
VI3TN1PMESE: why are you still with me?
kimwhoowin: i dont know
kimwhoowin: and your whole mom thing
kimwhoowin: sorry if i dont like her
kimwhoowin: a place where it looks like a human lives there
VI3TN1PMESE: i look it up
VI3TN1PMESE: everyone is human
kimwhoowin: I KNOW
kimwhoowin: i wouldnt live in your house
kimwhoowin: i wont survive
kimwhoowin: when you first took me to your house
kimwhoowin: didnt you want me to see a house where its nice
kimwhoowin: doesnt have to big
kimwhoowin: but looks clean and stuff
kimwhoowin: but instead
kimwhoowin: took me two houses where it looked messy
kimwhoowin: i didnt care
kimwhoowin: but still
VI3TN1PMESE: was that important to you?
kimwhoowin: i didnt care, but at least try to make it clean
kimwhoowin: i'm a clean person
VI3TN1PMESE: because to me it wasnt important, its not a permanent home
VI3TN1PMESE: well i am more cleaner then you
kimwhoowin: you would take my parents to your hoouse
kimwhoowin: oh really bacteria wise
VI3TN1PMESE: that is what you call clean
kimwhoowin: you are not organized
kimwhoowin: i mean the other clean
VI3TN1PMESE: if i were to take your parents to my house, i would plan it out ahead because that is very important to me
kimwhoowin: they wouldnt come
kimwhoowin: i would not take them there
kimwhoowin: i do not like where you live
kimwhoowin: i rather take them to a house
kimwhoowin: so stupid
kimwhoowin: oh so you think youre ugly
kimwhoowin: if you were, i wouldnt have gotten with you
kimwhoowin: i dont go for ugly guys
kimwhoowin: you were decent
VI3TN1PMESE: well i said i am ugly
kimwhoowin: yeah that might sound shallow, but thats how everyone is
kimwhoowin: ok then
kimwhoowin: so pathetic how you think of yourself that way
VI3TN1PMESE: im not going think myself as conceited or cocky
kimwhoowin: yeah but no one ever calls themselves ugly
kimwhoowin: low self esteem
kimwhoowin: you feel threatened by otthers
kimwhoowin: thats why you asked me if i was talking to anyone else
kimwhoowin: pathetic
kimwhoowin: and rude
VI3TN1PMESE: its a question
kimwhoowin: some question
VI3TN1PMESE: since all your answer was i dont know
kimwhoowin: get over it
VI3TN1PMESE: i am over it i didnt bring up the subject
kimwhoowin: yeah
VI3TN1PMESE: since i know the truth now
kimwhoowin: yeah i guess you do
kimwhoowin: see this relationship isnt working out
VI3TN1PMESE : your the one always complaining and i have to put up with it w/o saying anything
VI3TN1PMESE : this is the first time im saying something
kimwhoowin : then dont put up with me
kimwhoowin : no ones telling you to be with me
kimwhoowin : go ahead and break up with me
kimwhoowin : i dont care
kimwhoowin : dont act like im a pain to be with
kimwhoowin: this is how i am
kimwhoowin : if you dont like it
kimwhoowin : then i dont give a shit
VI3TN1PMESE : this is how i am and your always complaining about me, you dont see me complaining about you
kimwhoowin : cause you dont tell me the truth
kimwhoowin : you rather keep the negativities to yourself
kimwhoowin : then express the truth
kimwhoowin : all i here is the good stuff from you
kimwhoowin : i rather hear the bad stuff
VI3TN1PMESE: i didnt say i didnt get mad
VI3TN1PMESE : im just telling you
kimwhoowin : so what if i get mad?
kimwhoowin : sooner or later i'll understand
kimwhoowin : the problem with you is that you always think your mr. righteous and nothing is the matter with you
kimwhoowin : sometimes the problem is with you not me
VI3TN1PMESE : what about your problems im trying to tell you and i want to work this out but you keep getting mad
kimwhoowin : work what out>
VI3TN1PMESE : you getting mad
kimwhoowin : you havent been doing anything
VI3TN1PMESE : what do you mean
kimwhoowin : then tell me what you want to work out
kimwhoowin : you said it yourself
kimwhoowin : what do you mean what do i mean?
VI3TN1PMESE : i try not to fight with you , i try to get whatever you want and just earlier i told you that i always put up with you and i dont want to say bad things to you
VI3TN1PMESE : that is how im working this out
kimwhoowin : omg i dont want to be with someone who always compliments me and listens to me
kimwhoowin : i rather have a boyfriend who tells me the truth and the negatives about me
kimwhoowin : stop trying to picture as a perfect gf causse im not
VI3TN1PMESE : im not
kimwhoowin: i want a boyfriend who tells me when im being a bitch, when im being unreasoonable, someone who tells me i cant be put with. who tells me everything about me
VI3TN1PMESE : it seems like sometimes you know your own mistakes but then you hide it and find your way around and argue with me
kimwhoowin : not just tell me the good things about me
kimwhoowin : hey dont turn this on me
kimwhoowin : do you think i like putting up with your mom?
kimwhoowin : do you think i like that your poor?
kimwhoowin : do you think i like i have to make my parents and family like you everyday?
kimwhoowin : i know they dont we wont last and your just a chapter in my book
kimwhoowin : think about it. my parents wont like your family
kimwhoowin : do you think i like it when you act all weird around my family
kimwhoowin : you dont act normal around my older sister
kimwhoowin : stop saying you do cause you dont
kimwhoowin : do you think i like it when you control me?
kimwhoowin : im my old person
kimwhoowin : so what if i want to go clubbing
kimwhoowin : im 21
kimwhoowin : so what if i want to go out with my friends
kimwhoowin : so what if i want my space?
kimwhoowin : i dont need your permission and never will
kimwhoowin : im just asking you so you could know and giving you some respect
kimwhoowin : im not asking for a yes or no question
VI3TN1PMESE : you see what i mean? i just said that you always know your mistake and you find things to argue just like right now....
VI3TN1PMESE : bring up more stuff
kimwhoowin : whatever. talking to you is irrelevant.
kimwhoowin : you never understand
kimwhoowin : i really dont know why im still with you
VI3TN1PMESE : let me ask you this.. what did you bring my mom up for?
VI3TN1PMESE : why*
kimwhoowin : because i really dislike your mom. and family is important to you.
VI3TN1PMESE : i keep on hearing these complaints when i also have to deal with your mom too
kimwhoowin : wtf
kimwhoowin : whats wrong with my mom?
kimwhoowin : she wants me to be with someone who deserves me
VI3TN1PMESE : how she doesnt like that im skinny
kimwhoowin : i dont like that your skinny
kimwhoowin : its not just my mom that thinks your skinny
VI3TN1PMESE : im tired
kimwhoowin : i am to. why are we still together
VI3TN1PMESE: because i care about you
kimwhoowin : thats just caring
VI3TN1PMESE: why did you say that to me at the mall?
VI3TN1PMESE : you change your mind a lot
kimwhoowin : i dont know
kimwhoowin : i took what i said at the mall back
VI3TN1PMESE : can you just take one minute and stopping thinking about the negatives about me and think about the positive things ? well i hope you do understand all the good things about me instead of the bad. i have to go study bye
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| I've often thought about that question myself. I leaned toward people who offered a balance and allow them to lean on me as well. I see that involvement in school and community activities helped us to avoid the negative pull of our peers. If you find the right guys to hang with-guys you trust, who share your values, and your friendship-you'll find that you can stand up to almost anything. You may even be surprised how much you can accomplish together. I certainly was. You dont need money or status to enrich another person's life. Anybody with passion and purpose can do so. Many patients i prep with, their generosity always reminded me that i was carrying the hopes of a bunch of people. There are many trolls out there that never believed in me. No one can tell me that i cant succeed. Join trustworthy friends who have the same goal. Believe in yourself and your friends. Communicate openly, honestly, and often. You know you've made a difference in another person life. Dont forget when you touch another person life, the gift keeps on multiplying. Many doctors and nurses has motivated me, but mainly the people who kept me pushing is my mom, my dad (where i found passion in medicine), my bestfriend (truly bless), and youth group. Talking to them always helped me put those feelings to bed and focus again on school. School had to be all that mattered if i were to finish. Many of my friends were as deep into the streets as i was into school, but i didnt judge them. They didnt see me as a potential victim as theirs or as a person studying to become a doctor. And i didnt seem them as a potential threat. I knew i could count on Stephanie and Roy to help me study. I began to push myself harder. Two years i was on my own, i had to kick my performance up a notch to hold my dreams. I was always pretty good at figuring out what to study. The volume of information thrown at me in med. school can be overwhelming, but i was able to home in pretty quickly on what was significant. I could take 10-30 pages of notes from a lecture and figure out what the professor was going to focus on for a test. I usually picked up clues from the inflection in the professor tone or the amount of time spent on a subject during lecture. I'd go over all of my notes a few times but concentrate mostly on the notes i had underlined highlighted, or a star next to it. Medical school had not been a supportive environment, nurturing, and from the beginning i had felt but i had confidence in myself. I also sought to understand my purpose in medicine. I had reached that point in life where i have to ask (G0D) what is my purpose? what role do i play? where do i belong? ill let you know that NO one had ever sat me down and explained step by step what to expect in medical school. I was always finding out about courses and events the day of the deadline or just day before, which left little time to develop a strategy for success or even to prepare myself mentally. For me, everything was new, unfamiliar, and intimidating. I was meticulous about going over facts and formulas over and over again until i was sure i understood every details. This often slowed me down, but it didnt matter if i had to stay up practically two extra hours to study for a big test. What I've learned is when your asleep, your mind is still processing the learning. Without the support i have, i would've been completely lost. I was tired of fighting. I couldn't understand why everything had been such a struggle for me. I told myself and god that i had to fulfill my dreams. A part of me didnt want to be defeated. I knew i wanted to help people someday, i still wasn't sure i what kind of doctor i wanted to be. I had never been so determined to succeed. But i certainly did now, spending eight years in college didnt seem like a bad idea after all. I always admired my best friend virtue. I shifted my focus to getting into medical college. I could hardly see it myself. I wanted more out of my life. It was time for me to be honest. I had to let my friends go. I would never be able to rise with them tugging at my heels. I gave my books enough time, i was guaranteed to become a medical student. You just got to believe it can happen and believing in yourself. Surround yourself with friends who support your endeavor. I cant tell you how much it helped me to have my supporters in my life to help me reach my goal. Just knowing they were there and that they expected me to succeed motivated me. I found motivation wherever i could. My aunt once told me that i didnt have what it takes to be a doctor, and i even used that to motivate me. I love being the underdog. I love it when someone expects me to fail. My ex-girlfriend said to me "just to let you know, i am proud of you
i know you'll grow up to be a successful doctor." I also used that to motivate myself.
I hope this help you a lot and mind asking are you a male or a female. ps- i dont use fb much, my fb gets hacked a lot of times from friends. Anonymous people ask me medical and irrelevant questions on my formspring, so ill just answer them whatever i know. | | |
| Dear Heavenly Father,
My tasks.
- 1st goal- Pass all prerequisites classes with a letter grade A's and B's.
- 2nd goal- Graduate at Mission College with AS Degree in Biological Science.
- 3rd goal- Graduate from Stanford University with BS Degree in Physician Assistant.
- 4th goal- Work in the hospital for a few years as a PA while continue education for MPH Degree & save mulas.
- 5th goal- Buy my mom a house, a car, and propose to MKN.
- 6th goal- Apply at John Hopkins University School of Medicine & enroll into MD program. 3 years of residency
- 7th goal- Marry MKN.
- 8th goal- Graduate with a Doctorate Degree of Medicine specialize in General Surgery, second specialty Internal Medicine, & third specialty Hematology/Oncology. Form Team Six.
- 9th goal- Continue research with Team Six.
- 10th goal- Team up with Dr. Patch Hunter Adam's cause.
- 11th goal- Maintain 3.6 to 3.8 GPA.
- 12 goal- Find an Elixir for Cancer & go onto a mission trip with family.
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| Dear Jesus,
Good morning heavenly father. I love you. Lately i been thinking a lot about life. I know that there is a long road ahead of me. I know that you are going to use me for the good purposes. I want to say thank you so much for reading my blog, my journal, & answering my prayers. I been very fatigue lately. School is about to start soon & i am ready to study again. This blog is about someone special i knew 5 years ago. Her name is Mary Kim Nguyen. I met her during my Junior year of high school. I still remember how i first met her. I met her through Johnny Pham but i forgot who the driver was. There was 5 people in the car, including myself & Mary. I cant believe that when i first met her, i was smoking a cigarette. Total turn off right? & also it was in front of my house to, embarrassing isn't it? Well anyways, for some reason, i talk to her more & more each day. We got close together. I would buy her gummy bears & peach pleasures at Jamba Juice. I would sometimes wait during Vietnamese Student Union something like that. I remember i went to her talent show for VSU. I got to admit that she was beautiful. Also i would wait for her during VSU practice. Went to go buy the yummy popcorn chicken at Sweet Tea. She would feed me while i drive. I was so happy but i was still prideful with the people i hang out with. Around the mid year of my Junior year, after the battle of school? classes? whatever i forgot but anyways after that event, James and I went to go picked up Mary at school. I remember wearing pajamas and walk in. There was so many teenie boppers. I called out her name and she saw me. Her friend gave her this big poster "Mary Poppin" i guess it was their class theme. First off, before hanging out with me. We drop her off home so she can change. She was also wearing pajamas just like me. I remember James said "Good luck man, lucky time" haha funny moments. We were hanging out in my room. She was really fatigue from the event. When was she was about to fall asleep. I just lean over to her and kiss her. I finally made my move. "Episodes". After that morning, i know that both of us were thinking about what happened last night. I held her hand, walk her home, and kiss her again. We both decided it will not happen again and we need to get to know each other more. So we did, we both promise each other that we would both wait until marriage. I know it was to soon to say that kind of stuff, but truly, i did love her. We got more closer over the months, but i was still prideful. During my senior year, she had to move to Austin Texas, it made me really sad because i wanted to tell her how i feel. I didnt want to ruin her goodbye by letting my emotion out like that. I dont remember spending time with her but i know that both of us were really sad. I told her that i will wait for her when she come back to San Jose California, she also said the same line to. We both promise to wait for each other. Unfortunately, i broke that promise, i couldnt wait anymore, this is where i got with Kim. Mary still calls me, but i ask her to be my bestfriend and she said yes. Right now i dont know how she feels about me, but when i was with Kim, i still think about Mary. I know that i screw up big time and for that i am sorry. I always want the best for Mary, so i bought her a AT&T cell phone curve something 8 thousand haha. She was so happy, that it brighten up my day with all the stupid fights i had with Kim. This is the most recent conversation i had with Mary this year 2009. ohlittletony (9:29:20 PM) : i will wait for you. Auto-response: ohlittlemary is mobile (9:29:21 PM)
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texas ohlittlemary (9:33:20 PM) : Okay, but you be safe! Have fun wherever you are but be safe please!!! I have so much to tell you! Oh and uhm I got a text message when I checked how man ohlittlemary (9:33:23 PM) : y munutes I had left and it said I neeeded to pay like 46 dollars immediately. But please be ssafe wherever you are! I worrry bout you. And your friends ohlittlemary (9:33:25 PM) : stephanie and andrew texted me ohlittletony (9:34:44 PM) : it will be done on friday. dont worry ohlittletony (9:34:50 PM) : ignore andrew ohlittlemary is mobile (9:35:41 PM)
texas ohlittletony (9:35:49 PM) : wait for me ohlittlemary is mobile (9:37:30 PM)
texas ohlittlemary (9:37:29 PM) : Ohh well I talked to him a little bit but not a lot. And okay ill wait for you :j always bestie :j just wait for me too kay please :j ohlittletony (9:41:46 PM) : i miss you ohlittlemary (9:43:04 PM) : I misss you too bestie. Love you!! Hey, you can always call me anytime okay?? :j I got chu! :j ohlittletony (9:45:08 PM) : i will be on aim until you get back ohlittlemary (9:47:30 PM) : Okay :j I don't go aim much but when you're on IM me!! Do you have a cell yet?? ohlittlemary (8:30:29 PM) : Its not. And yes? What did you wanna ask me? :j I wanted to ask her... | | |
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